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My mind is consumed by the fire of you

The heat of my thoughts keep me warm

All winter long...

All winter long...

I'll never be cold

So long as I keep your memory with me

Carrying it in my heart

All winter long

Holding it close to my soul

All winter long

Forsaking it not when the springtime flowers bloom.

Time In Motion

Leave your mind behind and follow me

We'll float down on clouds to the sea

Stars in the sky illuminate your eyes

Breathing deep, gentle, beautiful sighs

Lay on shimmering drops of rain

Impossible love we can attain

Brush my fingertips on the sky

Grab the moon and start to fly

Wind picks us up and takes us away,

Gazing down from the stars

And that's where we'll stay.

Suicide King

Like a joker in my back pocket

Pretending to be an ace

I'll stare through those black eyes and say

Only had you around, just in case

Little boy actin like a man, such a disgrace

Could of had you anytime I was feelin blue

Strange as you appear my friend

To me, you are see-through

So I play my hand just for fun

You see it is a game

Shuffle your feeling like the queen of hearts

Have only yourself to blame

There was a time when I was confused

By the cards I had been dealt

But you see those days have long gone by

And lover, this is heartfelt

You thought I would change my mind

While the king he was gone

But who could love a fool like you

Felt trapped before the dawn

I bet my chips, laid down my cards

And, oh, what do you know

Won the game with you face down

Your worth is now zerO

Sleepy Girl

Sleepy girl, what to do

Go to bed and dream of you

Or stay awake and do the same

While I listen to drops of rain.

Oneness

Black gives way to light

Breaking through in rays of brilliance

Radiant golden hues kiss her face

And warm her soul

Caught in silent perfection

Unable, unwilling to let go

Resistance, acceptance-

And a free fall into the universe.

Delicious Vegetarian Pizza

I was about to make a grocery run to Whole Foods earlier, when I stopped to look up a few quick recipes before I left. I have a bad habit of going to the grocery store and leaving with tons of breakfast and lunch stuff i.e. carrots, celery, peanut butter, frozen fruit and end up with nothing to cook a meal. I came by a recipe for a yummy looking vegetarian pizza and decided to splurge a bit and have that for dinner tonight. Michelle thought it sounded really good and made one too. It was super simple to make and was absolutely delicious, so I decided to share it on here in case anyone is looking for something new to make:

Ingredients:

• 1 thin pre-baked pizza crust (we used a whole wheat flatbread)
• 1 16 ounce can *vegetarian* barbecue baked beans, drained slightly (couldn't find bbq baked beans so we got baked beans and spread some bbq sauce first on the bread)
• 1 1/2 cups shredded pizza cheese blend
• 3/8 tsp dried oregano
• 1 8 ounce can pineapple tidbits, drained well
• 1 small red or green bell pepper, thinly sliced

Preparation:

Heat oven to 425 degrees. (we did 400 degrees as indicated by the flatbread package)

Place crust on large baking sheet. Spread with beans within 1/2 inch of sides. Combine cheese and oregano. Sprinkle half cup of cheese over beans. Arrange pineapple and pepper on top. Sprinkle with remaining cheese.

Bake 11 to 13 minutes or until shell is crisp and cheese is melted. Remove to cutting board. Make three cuts lengthwise and three cuts crosswise.

Michelle used mozzarella cheese, red peppers, pineapple and vegan sausage.

I did a cheese blend, green peppers and pineapples.

First step with bbq sauce and baked beans:

Second step adding the cheese:

Last step adding the toppings:

The ingredients listed made enough for both of our pizzas and more so you have enough to make a few depending on the size of the crust you're using. Also here is a link to the site where I found the recipe: http://vegetarian.about.com/od/kidfriendlyrecipes/r/beanpizza.htm

Enjoy! =)

The Facade

Here is the poem typed out because its always nice to be able to read and interpret the words for yourself.

He studies her face but pretends not to notice

She watches him with restrained attention

Circle back to the point of origination

His illusions, delusions hidden under his fingertips

Her imagination like a child

Electric moonlight illuminates their eclectic movements

Going through the motions

E-motions asphyxiating the mood in the air

Their secluded temptation in a crowded room

Weakens vain attempts at inconspicuous reactions

He murmurs echos into her ear

She whispers silence to his soul.

The Year To Be Brave.

The title of this blog basically sums it up. I've decided this year is my year to be brave, every single day. It might have to do with the fact that I'm going on auditions almost every other day now..there's no place for fear or feelings of inadequacy in an audition. Not to say I used to be timid, but I've had many moments where I've let my mind/fears/anxiety get the best of me. I feel like I've discovered a whole new..or I guess improved version of myself when I stick to this no fear mantra and feel extremely liberated by this discovery. I respond to situations and the world in a positive way and I've really noticed that I receive positive response back. This might sound like a weird thing for someone to think but when I start to trip myself up I find myself thinking, you know what, who cares..honestly..who cares..the world could explode right now and then what..you're afraid of this audition/person/whatever and think about that compared the vast grandness of this universe and how minimal my situation is in relation to that. Not that I mean to degrade or downplay the meaning of what it is I'm anxious about, but I just think about those comparisons and it makes me feel joyful and laugh to myself about how silly it is to be anxious or fearful about my situation.

Anyways, that said, not many people know how obsessed I've always been with the written word. Hence my obsession with Shakespeare, Bob Dylan, Poe, Allen Ginsberg....I could go on and on and on...song lyrics, and just about any written words/spoken words that make me think or draw my ear to them. I've written poetry for just about as long as I can remember (not very consistently but in general)..I think 3rd grade was the first one I remember writing, about eating vegetables or something like that..haha. I majored in journalism, which also involves words and storytelling, but if I had picked another major it would have been poetry or creative writing. Even when I was in school I always wanted to pursue it as a second major but I guess I felt I never had the time. So there is a brief history of my word obsession.

This all leads to my decision to start posting some of my poetry. I have pages and paaaaages of the stuff and it suddenly started looking so lonely to me, sitting there trapped in a notebook. I'm not sure if I will post mostly videos or the words or what yet..but in staying with my no fear mantra I decided to read and record my first post out loud for everyone to hear..scary. It's funny how different it is reading someone else's written words out loud compared to when you are reading your own writing. So here are my words, spoken out loud by me with, deep breath, no fear =)

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year...

Halloween!! I'm not exactly sure why Halloween has always been my favorite holiday, but I've been thinking about it and it might have to do with some of the following: Candy (duh), Dressing up! Being an actor, I love dressing up as different characters so Halloween is just another excuse to be able to do that =), Getting really, really scared...I'm one of those people who will go see a scary movie even though I'll have nightmares for months after the movie..I guess I just love that anxious anticipation you feel when walking through a haunted house, hearing scary stories or seeing scary movies (eeek), also its one of the most beautiful times of the year, the weather is perfect and it smells like fall outside.

Some of my all time, won't sleep for months, favorite scary movies:

The pictures alone are completely creeping me out right now. Moving on to costumes...

It seems like the last few years I've had a harder time coming up with Halloween costume ideas. I think I'm just tired of seeing the same old costumes every single year. I loved my costume last year:

(On the right..Mia Wallace from Pulp Fiction, post drug overdose)

This year I am going to the Playboy Mansion Halloween party so I'm thinking something a bit sexier than what I'd wear to other Halloween parties. I've come up with these ideas..the first one is my favorite and the rest are probably all tied:

1) Raquel Welch's character, Loana, from the old cult film One Million Years BC: (I would have to make this costume because I can't find anything like it anywhere online)

2) 60's go-go hippie...kinda typical for me but what can I say I was born in the wrong generation:

3) I Dream of Jeannie, one of my favorite shows to watch (reruns) growing up:

4) Bettie Page style pin-up devil costume: (would have to put this one together myself)

5) Wonder Woman...who doesn't want to be a superhero?:

This is where I need help deciding!! Let me know what you think would be the best costume...I want something that I, hopefully, won't see on anyone else.

Happy Halloween!!!